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Thursday, May 3, 2012

Schools UGH!

So I haven't kept it a secret the boys hate their school and have been struggling there, of coarse the school blames me and honestly I was buying into thier way of thinking until yesterday. I thought the move was rough of them and they were angry, and that they were showing this at school so they wouldnt hurt my feelings. Yesterday Joey got off the bus and the bus stop is about a block from the house. I dont walk to the bus stop but I stand at the door and watch them and my youngest always gets off the bus with his head hanging upset that no one will play with him and he doesnt want to go back. Yesterday I'm watching him and two boys were smacking him and laughing at him, I went after him and of coarse they boys took off. Joey asks me why we have to be white, and wanted to know what a honkey is?? seriously I'm just wondering why it is okay that African Americans can teach their children to be racists but it's not for whites? I do everything I can to teach my children that we are all the same and to love3 one another but let me tell you its not easy to convince them of this when they get treated poorly because of their color.
When we moved from Indiana we moved from a prodominately white school to a prodomiantely black school, and I didnt think twice about it. When the boys had problems in school I assumed it was from the move and all the changes they had been through. Untill I had a conversation with the principal and she makes the comment "it's not a race thing" well duh imediately it dawned on me that it was and she was trying to cover herself. I even had a white teacher from another school tell me that sometimes a white teacher in an all black school is afraid to show a white student any extra attention because they may be labeled as racist. Isnt it time for this to be over?
I guess that I can teach my children to love everyone and that we are all the same, but I cant teach everyone else. Our goal now is to move to a district where there is a good mix and hope that they will have an easier time. that's what they both tell me they want. When I ask if they want to go back to Indiana they say no they just want to go to a different school, even talking to their counsler they tell them they want to go to a different school and be around more kids like them.

Just so frustrated, UGH!!

(sorry about my spelling the spell check wont work for me)

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